Knowing & Trusting...

Have you ever been so excited about something that it makes you feel sick to your stomach??? That's kind of how I feel. Tomorrow we will submit our dossier (adoption paperwork) to our agency. I can't even tell you how relieved I feel to finally have our paper work done! It has been a long haul but I couldn't be happier. We received our final papers in the mail yesterday all authenticated so we are good to go! No they go off the agency, then they go to Colombia for translation & approval... so now we wait.

Do you ever wonder why you even expend the energy to get anxious? Well today I did. I have been a bit anxious about the finances that it will take to submit these papers and just not sure where it would come from. Don't get me wrong, I KNOW God provides & knows exactly where it is coming from but sometimes I just can't shut my brain off to just trust. Today I got to talk to my dad for a while & he & Mom had already felt lead to send us some money for this part of the process. What a blessing! Poor Dad... I started crying on the phone! If you have ever been on the other end of the phone when I'm crying, it isn't pretty... I can't talk at all. Dad thought he had lost the connection with me then realized I was crying. Anyway - thank you so much Mom & Dad for being sensitive to the Holy Spirit! I can't tell you how blessed we feel!

We are still waiting to hear back from Shoahannah's Hope to see if we will receive a grant. Please pray that they will find favor in us. We are hoping and praying for this! We continue to covet your prayers and are so thankful for all our friends and family! We so appreciate your support!

A Little Behind

I'm a little behind with my updates here. Time has gotten away from me. There isn't a lot to report but I'll let you know what is going on with the adoption stuff. We received our papers back from "Homeland Security" (the I-600A that we submitted a few weeks back). Everything was in order so everything is good with that. We need to get our home study completed and our fingerprinting done to fully complete that step.

I am daily learning to trust God. Sometimes I don't get why it is so hard for me. Finances are something that I struggle with, just wanting to "figure it out." So in the last few days I have been wrestling with my will to want to control this and knowing that I need God to be in control. The adoption expenses are more than I know how to handle or more than I could ever just figure out. I know God is faithful and always has been. Jeremy and I have been more than blessed over the years and if we have ever been left wanting, it has been our doing and not the Lords. So I have to daily give this burden to the Lord. Thank you all for your continued prayers for this.

I am getting more excited as the days go by. It is hard to imagine what life with look like at the end of all this. How a child will turn our life upside down, as I know they will. I know it won't always be easy but I'm excited for the adventure.